The fog is clearing. I'm no longer running in an endless loop.
Another part of my awareness has unlocked. I don't know what the correct term is, but there are levels to your consciousness and also to yourself. With time and if you learn new things, a part of your awareness unlocks. It's like your brain opening up to feed from the world. It's like roaming around the world unaware it's full of color, and then realizing the world's hue is infinite, full of blues, reds, purples, greens and yellows. It's a strange and wondrous feeling. You see things that were hidden in plain sight. It's magical.
My mind is blooming.
And it's glorious.
Never give up on your dreams.
They're worth the struggle.